today......tot tt i wanna go to dickson birthday celebration...... but in the end i did not go.....reason???? i oso dunno......definitely got ppl there sayin mi....... ppl might think tt i am guai lan, stubborn or xiao ji....... mayb so ba..... cos i have a feeling tt i goin to mess up his birthday.....althru i dunno whether i have the might or not la.....but the feeling was too real..... it is beyond my control....... everytime i think tt it is goin to b a happy day to go to dickson birthday...... mi mind will go to the last sat tt time de bball times....which i ended up kinda quarrel with dickson...... haiish.....but ended up i gave alvin the thins n just go off to play acarde den as now.... i am at home liao....... perhaps i shld have gone with mi classmates to see the fireworks......mayb it could b beta den i facing my computer typing mi post......haiish......sian