darkandlonely: September 2006
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Saturday, September 30, 2006
「 bouncing away 8:35 AM 」

there once in mi secondary life..... one of mi prefects under mi grp said..." chee seng , y do u like to eat alone den eatin with all those other prefects.... u too proud liao issit??? u r the comm member does not mean tt u can b so diao hor??" i replied " not bcos of i am comm member la.. i just like to b alone sometimes.... or sort of dun wan to get so sad...".... reason being..... always tio outcast by ppl very easy one.... dunno y.... i just can`t get mi things rite..... i would rather being alone eating or studyin..... den being together with frends....den ended up tio outcasted due to the fact tt i really dunno wat r they tokin abt..... especially.... the same age or the same badge as mi..... i just duno how to communciate with them..... sooner or later..... feelin somehow developed.... tio outcasted de feelin is much more worst den being alone..... so being alone will b the best of all.... till now mi poly life.... i still have the feelin... damn sian lo.... i can`t say tt frends around mi dun appreciate mi ba.... just tt mayb i wanna outcast miself from them???? i really dunno/....


Signing off, [NAME HERE].

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Friday, September 29, 2006
「 bouncing away 10:22 AM 」

The Slow Dancer
Deliberate Gentle Love Dreamer (DGLDm)

Steady, reliable, and cradling her tenderly. Take a deep breath, and let it out real easy...you are The Slow Dancer.

Your focus is love, not sex, and for your age, you have average experience. But you're a great, thoughtful guy, and your love life improves every year. There's also a powerful elimination process working in your favor: most Playboy types get stuck raising unwanted kids before you even begin settling down. The women left over will be hot and yours. Your ideal woman is someone intimate, intelligent, and very supportive.

Your exact opposite:
The Hornivore

Random Brutal Sex Master
While you're not exactly the life of the party, you do thrive in small groups of smart people. Your circle of friends is extra tight and it's HIGHLY likely they're just like you. You appreciate symmetry in relationships.




ALWAYS AVOID: The Battleaxe

CONSIDER: The Maid of Honor or The Sonnet


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took this test...as i saw JUNE blog....lol....


Signing off, [NAME HERE].

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Thursday, September 28, 2006
「 bouncing away 7:01 AM 」

hmm.... came back from class chalet.... so fun..... was meeting jun kiat n jingyi gang to go to the chalet..... den saw jingyi.... wow she bond her hair.... so funny to mi.... den take the shuttle bus to coasta sand chalet..... when reachin... miss lina leaving liao...so fast sia.... den ready to start fire liao......told dunno how long sia.... den zhi hao.... peng lo..... fan the thing until so many ashes come out.... strong arms... den leonard , i , jun kiat started to bbq the foods liao....i realise tt actually i not bad at bbq foods sia....... den eat eat eat... den Mr Toh, Mrs Yap n Mr Ang came.... tok awhile den went to go CHEERS with sheng yang n chuan liang.....came back.... the lecturers all go back liao....haha....mei mei n gang oso came liao....... den continue bbq lo....they took photos around...... started to play pokers.... bai dee..... get to noe alot of diff kind of bai dee.... asshole bai dee... russian poker... n other more...lol....play until sleepy.... abt 3-4 something all go slp liao.... althru small space 4 us to slp la....but ok la... den wake up in the morning., cycle around the beach there.... cos i cycle to the chalet.... n yes... go there see got chio bu or not... i tot i saw a chio bu sia....she was sitting on tt breakwater or dunno wat.... the body figure was like a gal....den when she turn abit ..... i think i saw a guy instead.,.... wow... die... something wrong with mi eyes.... mistake a guy into gal.... wow... wonderful.,.... den went to the food court at DTE eat breakfast.... den go aracde n home sweet home..... tml still need to go skool to hand up things


Signing off, [NAME HERE].

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Saturday, September 23, 2006
「 bouncing away 5:46 PM 」

i have been askin miself this qn alot of time but till now i haven find an ans yet....
Is mi life b control by the word "fate" or control by im??
till now mi life is like control by the word "fate"..... fate to mi is scary yet easy to accept..... cos althru my life is sad but i get use to it liao..... all those events tt happened to mi last time....seem to b beyond mi control..... english fail during o lvl..... "mi ...... death"...... i could not control.... yet i still have to accept it..... dun u think kinda nonsense???
but when time..... u will to try to control ur life..... isn`t it too tough 4 ppl??? u have to struggle alot..... spend alot of time to try n change the life tt control by the word "fate" n ended up wat do u get???? most of the time is the opposite of wat u try to get or goin back to fate again..... den wat the use of tryin to control ur life..... might as well let the fate decide all ur life...... cos on matter wat u do..... u will not get wat u wan in the end.....
let say example ...... u go ask forunate teller..... he said tt u will die soon by car.... den wat u goin to do??? not goin out, scared tt u might knock down by a car???? den stay indoor , is the best way rite??? NOPE.... wat make u so sure tt a toy car will not cause ur death???? so how or another.... no matter how u tried to run again from the word fate.....u still canot avoid it..... so do u see the point.... wat 4 struggle?? some ppl told mi....." we struggle bcos we wanna to try.... to see a hope of light..... or at least we will not regret...." but u see no matter wat u do..... it will still come back to the original point..... it is just a way to confront with "fate"..... so might as weel just being a person with "no life"... let fate control U...... u r not living in this world cos of urself, ur family, ur frends..... but just bcos the fate wan u to b here.... n thus u r here..... more easy to accept.....haiish..... life is just nothing but being control by fate.....


Signing off, [NAME HERE].

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Thursday, September 21, 2006
「 bouncing away 5:45 PM 」

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see.... during mi S2006 job..... make so many frends including bus drivers n policemen..... oso noe more frends liao.... Round JJunee... u r one.... den benny n jun kiat oso......noe john, derick, mabel n other..... how i wish the S2006 can b longer....so i can make more frends sia


Signing off, [NAME HERE].

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Wednesday, September 20, 2006
「 bouncing away 6:13 AM 」

today is the last day of the S2006 job...... haiish.... gonna miss tt few days tt i chat with the delegates, bus drivers n policemen..... n get to tok n have more understanding on some of mi FBI frends liao.....kinda more bonding liao....cos went n go acompany june to her bus.... tok to her n understand her more....database have been updated........den i am damn frustrated today after the S2006.....did not able to get the goodie bag of the S2006.... den come back home.... this is bad..... soon goin to update mi blog with photos liao.... i think i will do it tml.....


Signing off, [NAME HERE].

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Saturday, September 16, 2006
「 bouncing away 6:05 AM 」

today...went back to mi original job.... but diff route...today one is the raffles hotel route...which is R3 if i am not wrong..... den i think tt today i have the most delegates from mi duty excluding the registration one..... all of them r very frendly..... i really feel like seeing them again....when the r alighting.... i will go to the back door n said " have a nice day".... they will like smiling to mi..so frendly lo.....so fun....there is one synde news reporter...told mi something i dun really noe....which was there is pyton in Singapore..... i learn something new again...lol...... especially there is one italian news delegate..... he is a really frendly n kind guy.....cos i started to chat with his delegate........ althru he do not really speak english....but he tried very hard to pronoun it well.... n somehow or another i understand wat he said and ask..... but i did cannot ans all his qns.... bcause some of the qns i dun really noe.... askin HQ oso no reply..... den he asked mi abt there r how many policemen in Singapore.... i was like "omg".... den i said 40000..... which ended up was a wrong wrong ans.... lol..... den i decided to ask mi policeman...so heng tt i had carify with the italy delegate..... i had alot of experience with diff ppl all over the world..... really learnt alot from them..... here... i like to wish them have a nice trip in Singapore....


Signing off, [NAME HERE].

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Friday, September 15, 2006
「 bouncing away 2:32 AM 」

the 3rd day of work liao..... damn shag.... my job was sending the delegates from the hotels to suntec n from suntec to hotels..... tt is just easy la.... sometime chat with them if there is just onli one delegate or person in the bus..... if alot or 2 n more delegates, i will ask them whether they wan newspaper n tok onli abit nia..... till today....woah..... so sway...or dunno la... cos when i get miself to the carpark F.... just went i abt to get mi schedule of the day....the IC asked mi whether i wanna change mi job from mi current post... to bring the delegates to city hall n hotels.... i decided to take up the job cos wanna change some routes.... how i noe.... it is so tough..... cos this time there r alot of delegates.... i mean alot n really to mi is alot after 2 days of workin.....wow.... n the job was challenging....cos some of the delegates might mixed up with the hotels n city hall..... but i hope tt the service provided by mi is gd n enjoyable ba..... but still man r not prefect....dunno whether issit mi mistake or not la..... cos one of the delegates misses his stop.....den i have no choice but to lead him back to city hall....n ask him to take the same bus again...cos mi bus is goin back to carpark F liao......i dunno so i apologise to the delegate.... but after tt incident.... i learnt something..... i will ask each n everyone of the delegates to noe which hotel they stay in...so when we reached the hotel , i can straightaway direct the delegates n the delegates will not miss his /her stop.... really sorry to the delegate tt missed his stop.... soon will post up the photo tt i goin to take during mi S2006.....


Signing off, [NAME HERE].

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Sunday, September 10, 2006
「 bouncing away 3:08 AM 」

tml is the big day 4 mi...... whether i can make it or not..... it all dpend on tml..... get mi schedule liao..... throughout the whole S2006.... i onli work for 6 days.... tt is very little.... i oso dunno y like i am the onli one tt have breaks 4 4 days..... my last day of work is 18th of sept..... den mayb 19th of sept, i goin to find job again..... wanna earn some money to buy a new hp, dvd drive..... n other more...... dunno whether delyn them found a job liao....if they haven.... i think i goin to fond job with them.... perhaps ba..... dun wan to stay at home....wanna earn money.....lol


Signing off, [NAME HERE].

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Friday, September 08, 2006
「 bouncing away 3:20 AM 」

haiish so sian.... 2 more days b4 my job start..... today went n get mi uniform n mi pass..... mi pass photo look so dumb lo.....lol..... den the uniform i think is alrite ba.... to mi la..... will post up mi S2006 pass n mi uniform tml or next day after tml...... feelin so complicated now....after tokin with dino when walkin back home..... realise n learn quite alot of things...... he kinda of have the same tot as mi sia.....lol..... jun kiat ar.... u r so diff lo...
i dunno y..... i startin to realise tt i like to act liao.....no matter happy or sad..... i will just act the opposite of it....dpend on mi..... i can control mi emotions..... tt is a bad thing....sometimes i dun even noe whether is tt mi true emotion or not..... haiish....really make think how to express miself truly..... realising tt i am not onli lying to other but miself oso...... i really in the dark now....cannot see a dim of hope......
another one was tt mi frend "A..in"..... tell mi tt i am totally no life.... i onli stuck with mi 4e5 frends..... n i dun really like to go out when mi frends asked mi to unless where they r goin is in the east of singapore......i think i am too lazy.....or rather i like to stick at home more...... which i think tt it has turn out to b mi comfort zone liao....i not willing to come out of mi comfort zone..... perhaps i took too much time to make mi frends or frends tt i can really tok to then not willing to give up/ get out of them so easily...... haiish need some help.....hu can i really tell mi problem to???? i think now..... no one...... realise tt i now comin back to mi old self.....too much problems liao....AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Signing off, [NAME HERE].

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Thursday, September 07, 2006
「 bouncing away 3:42 AM 」

wow.....3 more days to go b4 my S2006 job start...... so excited to start my job rite away..... now still haven get mi uniform.... tml la..... the people said tt tml i will b collecting mi uniform n mi pass..... oso goin to noe mi timetable for monday..... really can`t wait liao..... goin to meet all diff countries delegates...... wondering can i communicate with them??? how am i goin to intro Singapore to them??? how am i greet them??? how am i goin to provide them a very gd service..... all these keep on wonderin in mi mind..... haha..... anyway.... goin to have a fresh new look just 4 this event.... goin to have a haircut, style mi hair..... wanna leave the delegates a gd impression of Singapore.....haha.......


Signing off, [NAME HERE].

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Sunday, September 03, 2006
「 bouncing away 8:00 AM 」

early in the morning.....went to jog with my family.....from my hse to pasir ris downtown.....wow...i really had to admin tt i am getting old liao.....cannot run very fast.....cos i ran too fast.....den in the end within 1 min.... i felt dizzy liao.....den went to dte to have MAC breakfast....wow....so full.....den walk n walk in the pasir ris park to the stable.....den went into the mangrove swamp.....so peng lo.... mi sister keep on scaring mi.....stupid......but see many mud skipper, crabs n 4-legged snake....dunno how to say the name la...... after walkin so long....decided to go back to dte n play aracde.....same thing.... daytona, para para n basketball.....wow sian lo...this time did not get to 2nd stage sia....mayb due to mi tireness ba..... after tt went tampines mall to shop with mi mother..... ate some dessert n went back home abt 4 like tt..... den alvin called n asked mi to go century square with him......i really nothing to do then stayin in front of mi computer and singing to music....so i might as well go out again lo........ same thing go cs n play i n alvin favourite games.....out run 2.... tt is very kool la..... mi drifting is getting beta liao lo..... i oso won alvin in tt game..... jian wen was there oso..... den the next game...lethal force 3..... tt alvin die 2 lifes after the 3 stage.....den i had to cover him till some of the stage sia..... c.... i so noble one..... i will not ps ppl..... i asked alvin to stay wherever he is....so he can shield himself from the attack den i chiong all the way to reach the pitstop so we can go together...... finally..... went to the last stage..... alvin was like so excited lo..... screamed..... haha.....wow the last n final stage was like to ridculous liao lo..... so many innocent ppl running n enemies were hiding around n shooting us..... but i n alvin dun care..... onli left one last life liao....so anyhow chiong n kill ppl no matter good or bad...... saw the stupid last boss.... i kanna kill by him.... den alvin cos of the timing den game over..... so irritating lo......lol....but at least get to final stage onli using one coin sia.... tt kool...hehe.... yup tt all ba..... tml mayb goin to tp to get my S2006 uniform....hope they have it liao


Signing off, [NAME HERE].

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Friday, September 01, 2006
「 bouncing away 5:55 AM 」

hmm......early in the morning.... i was so shocked with wat i am being covered..... i am being covered by mi blanket.....cos the place i was sleepin the night wasn`t my bed....but other bed which mi pillow n blanket wasn`t there..... den realise tt was mi mother use it to cover mi cos she said tt i look cold.....so touchin lo..... long time did not have this feeling liao sia.....den.....today went to esss to play board games n card games with mr leong n my frends......damn fun lo..... i starting to like those games..... actually not bad lo..... it is full of thinking strategy.....but ended up not as fun as i expected la not the games....but other conditions.......so decided to go play aracde b4 goin back home....


Signing off, [NAME HERE].

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